We all kind of knew that Bey must have written ‘Sorry’ for something and that Lemonade wasn’t just hype- it was her experiences and life. It was her pain when Jay-Z cheated. So now, in an interview with New York Times, Hov shares how infidelity became an effect of his upbringing and surroundings growing up. he also shares how being in therapy helped him really make 4:44.
Directly quoting Jay, “You have to survive. So you go into survival mode, and when you go into survival mode what happen? You shut down all emotions. So even with women, you gonna shut down emotionally, so you can’t connect.”
“In my case, like it’s, it’s deep. And then all the things happen from there: infidelity…”
We had “Sorry” and the rapper’s title track “4:44” drop hints to kind of shed light on this matter, but only now on record did Hov openly admit it.
During his interview with Dean Baquet, he also shares what it was like being there when his wife was making Lemonade. He also shares the necessity of the uncomfortability of being there in the middle of the pain he had caused her. It’s interesting to see how much Jay sees the entirety of his life, community and relationships now- and how it’s all connected.